UpDate

well today has been absoloutley crap! i asked the boy i liked out and he rejected me :'( i also found out when my nans funeral is and that my mum is upset . well this just proves that i will never live a wonderful life! merry Christmas

Turning around

well today started out just as yesterday i was very quiet and didnt want to talk to anyone. i followed my usual routine and came up stairs to get ready to go to bed for school tommorow and what do i find on my fav site? Yes i had won a new moon film board game!!!! omg i was so excited and this gives me hope that maybe things can get better from this horrible event. i hope so good night (not like im gonna be able to sleep with all this excitement and worry lol )

Lonely day

well today my best friend was meant to be coming over but she ditched me for her boyfriend.  of course as usual i spent the day txting dan. i still have no clue what to do i feel so useless i want to cry but stop myself , i feel so useless i want to go c her but i can and all i can do it sit around waiting for that horrible phone call im dreading it well im gonna go cos im crying again bye x

Such Sad Sad day

today tonite, my nanny Gladys is dying they have taken the tube out of her and given up hope. i have no clue what to do except hope, pray and cry. i cry not because i want to but because im jealous of the angels that are taking her away from me and this world. i cry because i love her so much as if she were my real nan. i cry because i think of all the things which she wont get to see. im going to miss her sooo much i dont know what ill do. :'(

Very deep snow today !!

well today i went and played in the snow it was very deep :D haha now am very bored sitting watching the 1000th episode of jeremy kyle ever made whoop!! xx